I need for you to understand that I am just depressed in general right now and the past few days didn't help. It's difficult now because you are gone but maybe better cause we will take the time to communicate. I love you. Never forget that. I'm just dissapointed with myself now...don't know how to catch up with work and the house, etc. I will get through it if you let me. Guess I am just looking for someone else to blame for my insecurity.