Well I will write a few words before I turn the computer off while I am
still remembering what I want to say. First I need to say “I Love you”.
I want these words to be the first words and the last words you hear every
day. So, after I move out, and since I don’t want to wake, you will have
to phone me every morning when you wake up, before the radio, coffee, or
whatever, except peeing. I won’t say hello, I will just say “I Love You”.
Then you can talk or just say goodbye. Same thing at night. I will not
say goodbye, nor will you, I will just say “I Love You” and then hang up.
You need to know that you are loved more only by God, since no human can
love you like He does. Then comes me. After me you can arrange everybody
and anybody else, such as you brother, your lovers or friends, in any
order you wish. If you feel someone loves you more then you must tell me
why so I can correct the way I love you. You do not need to love me for
me; you just need to let me love you. Please just let me love you. The
fact that you love me makes it easier, but your love for me is not as
important to me as my love for you. I will prove this when I get back,
for I will no longer stalk you. I will set a time with you for the
morning and the evening so as not to awaken you. I will not call before
the appointed time no matter how excited I am to call you, except for
tomorrow because it has been so long since I have heard your voice. So
please do not make tomorrow a 7:30 time. I can wait a little while, so
please make it 6:30 or 7:00 at the latest. Please!

Saturday evening, Sunday and this morning have already used up over an
hour of my email time. But I still have 3 hours left. So far I have
spent about 20 minutes in the sun, and 4 or 5 hours typing. I also found
out how God stopped the one email. What I do is write in Word and then
cut and paste. Your “left-handed compliments” caught me by surprise, so I
had to write an immediate response. If the connection is not used within
3 minutes, I am automatically logged out. Since I am a slow writer and
typist, it took more than 3 minutes to write a 3 line response. When I
pressed send, it gave me a 404 error and the page was lost. I will show
you the response that I wrote in Word when I get back and you can tell me
then how you would have received it. Hopefully I will be able to convince
you of my intentions while sitting by your side so that I can correct any
miss communication. I think I will wait and send this current writing at
a later time. I will wait until evening or until I get a response from
you that you read my last email. I don’t want to overburden you or
overwhelm your with too much to think about, and I think you need to think
about the last one a little bit. Please don’t forget about calling Paul,
and I will remind you until you tell me to stop or that you just won’t
call him.

With al the love I have in me, your faithful servant.



Just got back from lunch were I met a lady named Rosie. She didn’t like
the name “Terry” and asked for my middle name since “I am not a Terry”.
She also said if I didn’t like “John” I should pick something else, so I
said “Michael”. She said that “John Michael” was Catholic, but it fit me
well. What do you think, since you also don’t like “Terry”?


2 hours later:
Just had a long talk with a guy that I met during a Human Awareness
Institute introductory class. They have classes at Harbin Hot Springs,
and I think it is something that you would really enjoy. It’s something
that we could do together in April or May when it’s warmer. The class
starts on a Friday night and finishes Sunday Afternoon. It’s all about
love. Lots of hugs, looking into each others eyes, holding hands, etc.
BTW, it’s also clothing optional.

The fellow I met is your age, and he too is/was a carpenter. He once met
a girl named Marry Alice and had an instant connection with her, but he
was already engaged to be married. He is now in the process of getting a
divorce. I thought you said that you recently met a lady named Mary
Alice, and I was wondering what are the chances that it might be the same
person. I think that Mary Alice is not that common, so could it be?

Well now it’s 3:36 your time, 7:36 here. I just re-read all that I sent
you and found some errors. I hope you are able to read past them. One
was an accident (Fhuck) that I caught but left hoping that it would bring
a laugh. The others I just missed. I usually reread what I write, but
when it gets near the end of what I just wrote, I read what’s in my mind
and not what is on the screen. I guess that is related to my dyslexia.

I lost track of time while reading this afternoon and missed the Captain’s
dinner with free drinks, so I ate at the buffet line. It was very good.
So was the book. I am now starting part two, the workbook. I will send
you the workbook information when I have finished it. I also want you to
know how much I have missed you today. I think I have checked the email
every hour for just a note saying that you got my last one. I hope things
went well for you today and that you are close to being done. I am sorry
but I have to go to the movie or else I will just sit here and cry in my
soup without you. I miss you so terribly much, that the movie has already
started.

Well I just got back and I guess you haven’t had a chance to get to your
email yet. It’s only 6:15 so you probably are at Albertsons or something.
I am going to send this to you anyway, and then see if the gym is open.
I guess I’ll find something to do for awhile since I won’t be able to go
to sleep. Maybe if the gym is closed I’ll write you the love letter that
I have been promising you.

I Love You