Hi Love,

This will probably be my last email to you today. I will try and squeeze
out one more this evening. The internet was down this afternoon when we
got back, and I lost a few minutes. I have only 8 minutes left.

How can I thank you for still loving me after what I said and almost
accused you of? I love you so much it pains my heart to think that I
might have hurt you. You didn’t deserve what I said. I’m so sorry that I
took you well meaning intentions wrong. I will tell you all that I
thought while we read the emails in order together. Maybe then we can
explain what we were trying to say to each other.

Again I fond myself staring at your picture. I will have to get some
screen cleaner to clean all the wet finger kisses from where I touch your
face and boobs. At this point in my life I think I would die if God took
you from me or if you left me. It will take awhile living with you to be
able to love life enough to live without you. I am so afraid that
something will happen and I will lose you. And I don’t mean someone, I
mean something. I don’t know what, maybe Alena get really sick, something
makes you really sick, or something like that. We have to pray and ask
God to bless our time together. I think my fear is that I never really
had true happiness, and with you I will. I guess I’m afraid that it will
be short lived because all good things like you in my life were short
lived. Maybe I’m just afraid that Alena actually made an appointment,
which would put of my leaving for a month or two, and I am getting
impatient.

On to happier thoughts. I will call you no earlier than 7:00 tomorrow
morning. I should be off the ship by then. If I am able to get another
email from you telling me an earlier time, then I will call when you say.
Please check my email before you go to sleep to see I have read it, that
way you will know when I will call. Is there anyway I can impress you
enough to let you know how beautiful I think you are? Think about it, and
if there is, let me know so I will do it. It’s getting close to dinner
time so I have to get dressed. It’s going to be a bummer being back home
and not being able to be naked all the time.

I Love You So Much,
And thanks for forgiving me!!